Dec 29, 2022 12:00AM

Why I do feel alone

Even when surrounded by people

Some familiar faces

Some faces I remember from the past

Some faces that I usually see

Some faces I dream to see

And still, I find myself alone

And all alone

I live

I breathe

I work

I eat

I try to live

I try to pleasure

I have myself

Independently doing it all

And still, why do I feel alone

Life is supposed to be colourful

Everything has a black and white area

May be a grey area also exist

The area I live in have no colours

The area in find myself is void

And however, the void is full of chaos

Chaos created from my mess

Mess created from trying to find happiness

Happiness, so that I feel good

Good about what I have achieved

Good about being a survivor

And still, why do I feel alone

Am I lonely if I have no one holding me back

But what about me

Me being there for myself

Maybe that’s just a conspiracy

Maybe I am not even there

Not there for my own self

May be my soul is long lost

May be its waiting to be found

Maybe its even dead and not found

And I still wonder, why do I feel alone